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I am finally posting something other than a survey!

I am so tired of this routine where I wake up tired, drive through traffic for an hour all tired, then start work tired, then feel alert at around 2-3pm then feel tired again, then feel tired on the drive back home from work (which is another hour).  Once I am home, Yoona greets me for second then runs outside to do her business.  I always pray it isn't a big one because I am never in the mood to clean up after her.  Then I get to lay in my futon for 30 minutes before my mom begins to tell me the list of things that need to be done in the house.  I try to act sick or hurt so she would feel bad for me but, I think everyone in my house just feels bad for themselves (me included).  My mom is a widow, my sis is an orphan and I am the insensitive son/brother who cannot find the energy to do anything for his family.

I have so much to talk about!  Its mostly about how annoyed I am but, I guess I should hold back on that.  I am sure none of the readers want to read that....

I don't understand how adults manage to find time to do what they do.  Working 5 days just drains me from doing anything productive outside of work.  Once I get home, there is so much yardwork to be done.  Yardwork that never ends.  And there is 집회준비 stuff, 가족숭배준비 할껏, and personal study.  I don't even have a show that I watch regularly now and I still don't seem to have time for anything.  When elders talk about how drama watching consumes too much time, I scoff.  That is a thing of the past for me.  I really look at my schedule and I do not know where my time is going off to.  I don't watch shows or dramas, I don't workout, I don't read books, I don't have any particular hobbies, I don't do... anything....

Living with two women is not easy.  I understand that women are known to be the "weaker vessel" but, that just means men are "weak vessels" and not "strong vessels."  Men are weak too.  I wish all women would understand that.  Do they really think we block out all thoughts and that we do not have problems to deal with?  Being the man of the house is not easy and I am always hoping that it will get better.  I do not see how things could get worse.  I was so encouraged by reading the Bible about Joshua a few weeks back but, that encouragement seems to be fading already.  I guess that is why a meaningful daily Bible reading is essential.

I have been calculating where my time is being spent because I never seem to find time to complete all the tasks that are given to me.  If I split the big chunks it comes down to this:

• Work(and work related things.. such as driving to work): 33% (55 hours)
• Sleep(if I were to sleep 8 hours a day.. which never happens): 33% (55 hours)
• Other(this is the time I need to break down): 33% (55 hours)

*Time is split in percentages for a 7 day week (168 hours)

So if I break down the "other" category of my time it comes down to this:

• 봉사 (and related things): 14% (8 hours)
• Movie watching: 5% (3 hours)
• Showering/Dumping: 3% (2 hours)
• 가족숭배 and related things): 7% (4 hours)
• 집회 (and related things): 10% (6 hours)
• Hanging out with friends (and related things): 40% (22 hours)
• Others: 18% (10 hours)

*Time is split in percentages for the 33% "other" category (55 hours)

When looking at my time like this, it seems like I have a lot but I do not get why I cannot get all my tasks done.  The 10 hours of "Others" falls is doing chores for my mom, cleaning my room, drinking alone, and/or having to do the hall accounting work once a week.  I guess the biggest chunk of my time that I need to fix is time spent with friends.  A lot of my time is spent looking at my kakaotalk/story or texts or driving to go play or eat dinner or drink.  If I cut that to 12 I think it would make a huge difference.  Easier said than done ey?  I guess if I just take that leap and spend more time reading the Bible and meditating.. things would get better.  If I cannot sacrifice time spent drinking with friends, how would I ever help out a place where the need is greater? 

Well, I'm going to talk about this stuff with Eugene next week.  He is such a good listener and I love hearing his fun problems with life.  He asked me out on a date.  He needs to practice somewhere right?  I will let him practice on me since I am such a good hyung.  I have definitely been talking to Eugene more than I used to.  I am trying to get some of his pioneer spirit and get a taste of his illumination from God but, I think he is just depressed.  He misses his peers in pio school too much.  He won't admit it but I think he cries at night while looking at the pioneer school picture. 

Well that was a good hour spent at work.  I looked like I was writing an important email.

Sorry for having such a long, cluttered, and "bleh" post.  I will try to post a more positive and organized entry next time.  Bye!

Who were you with last night?
--- Bros and sisters.

What woke you up this morning?
--- Phone alarm.

Where are you?
--- Work.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
--- Maybe.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
--- Yoona.

When's the last time you cried?
--- A few weeks.

The PAST
Ever thrown up in public?
--- No.

Passed out because of alcohol?
--- Yes.

What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
--- I want to eat something.


The FUTURE
Would you take a bullet for anyone?
--- Yes.

Where would you like to live?
--- Where ever the need is greater.

What kind of house would you like?
--- A small house at a good location.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
--- A pioneer.

Where do you see yourself in years?
--- Paradise.

Who was the last person that left you a message?
--- My sister.

Are you good friends with this person?
--- Yes.

How often do you log in to facebook?
--- Never.


IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces?:
--- Yes.

When's the last time you fell or ran into something?
--- A few weeks ago, while I was running up the stairs.  Stubbed my toe in the process

Do you still go trick or treating?
--- No.

What was the last thing you ate?
--- Froyo... last night.

Are you a fast typer?
--- Decent.

About how many people have you driven with?
--- 11 in an astrovan for kyukji bongsa.

What are you doing this weekend?
--- Engine oil change, yard work, and bongsa.

Whats your favorite type of soda?
--- Root beer.

Have you ever moved?
--- Yes.

Have you ever won an award?
--- Yes.

How many times have you eaten sushi?
--- Many times.

What do you want to do right now?
--- Eat something in bed while watching something funny on the computer.

Are you listening to music right now?
--- No.

Are you with someone right now?
--- I guess with 2 of my coworkers?... but I am in my own office... so.. idk

Whats a word or phrase that you love?
--- "야! 이것들아!"

How long until your birthday?
--- 9 months.

When were you the saddest in your whole life?
--- I guess when I was in Korea.

What time is it now?
--- 9:10AM.

Do you think anyone will repost to this?
--- No

What makes you pissed off?
--- So many things: anything annoying, when someone repeats what I say as if they never heard me say it, when people lie, when someone talks bad about my family, when someone treats my family badly, when Yoona pees after coming inside the house, there are so much more.. but its getting boring and I want to end this..

Have you ever had a song written about you?
--- I made a song for myself once.. more like a poem..

What song makes you cry?
--- A lot of KCM songs... I think it is the pitch he sings at more than the words of the songs.

What songs makes you happy?
--- Party rock, 좋은날, 너랑나, Boo, Jumpin Jumpin, Marshmallow, 챔피언... I can't think of anymore...

What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
--- IU

Do you have a job??
--- Yes.

What does Your CD player have in it right now?
--- I think a John Mayer CD... 

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
--- Purple.

What makes you happy?
--- Completing tasks and overcoming difficulties.

Height?
--- 5'7 1/2.

Hair?
--- Black.

Piercings?
--- Nope.

Tattoos?
--- Nope. 

What are you wearing?
--- Jeans and a plaid button down.

What taste is in your mouth?
--- An acidic hungry taste.

Do you have a bad habit?
--- I like to pick my nose a lot.

Yes! Manager is in a meeting!  I'm so excited to do this survey!!! Yay!

 

What is your dream job? Not to have one.

How many kids do you want to have? 0-2-4

What is the last song you were listening to? Heartbreak warfare.. I think...

What is your favorite soda? Root beer

What is the way you would like to be engaged to? With a ring

Do you like myspace or facebook better? fb

Are you in love? No.

If you were to have a baby boy right now, what would you name him? Kosmo

What kind of car do you drive? '05 Civic

What color is your room? beige-ish/light, pale yellow

Do you have a job? If so, where? Yes. Buckhead.

Do you think people should wait until they are in love to have sex? Yes. First comes love~ then comes marraige~ then comes the baby in the baby carriage!

What was the last thing you ate? Wendy's

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Boyfriend.

What color is your underwear? ugh... I just had to wear the ugliest underwear I own... faded gray

What is your favorite smell on a boy or a girl? Any smell that is girly and light.  I hate it when they put on lotion in an enclosed car... no matter how good it smells... its too much

Have you ever been to superdawg? Where is that?

 

Usted sabe lo que significa esto? Yo no se que tu preguntalemehoweverthiswordends..

Have you ever gone fishing, and actually caught a fish? Yes.

How big is your closet?  As big as my old room (I made my old room into a closet).

Team Jacob or Team Edward?  OMG! This is so hard...... idk how else to answer this... Physically I am Team Jacob.. but my heart goes to Team Edward! \^0^/

How old will you be on your next birthday? 26 (my fav #)

If you had a baby girl right now, what would you name her? Kathy? Mindy? Minzy?

Do you want to have a small wedding or a big wedding? Small

Do you have to take any daily meds? No.

Do you know how to tie a tie? Yes.

Do you have any pets? Yes.

Do you have one stuffed animal that you can't sleep without? Used to... My stuffed polar bear from a community bank.

Do you play any sports? If so, which one(s)? Yea I play sports occasionally... soccer, basketball, ping pong.. not good at them though.. actually.. I am decent at ping pong

What is your favorite color? Purple

 

 

 

I am always so dissapointed at the end of my surveys......

Cheap post #2

Name the most terrifying moment of your life so far.
I don't have one... I have a lot of small scary moments

If you could bring one character to life from your favorite book, who would it be?
King David.

If you wanted to look very sexy, how would you dress?
I would wear a tank top. And show my cleavage.

Who would you most like to be stuck in an elevator with? Least like?
Like - Any fun/pretty girl that I can protect
Least like - Shin.

Have you told your partner about all of your past relationships?
No partner and if I had one, I wouldn't tell her.

What outfit or article of clothing do you like to see your spouse wearing the most?
Anything that is comfy for her.

What was the most recent movie that made you cry?
I don't remember.

If you could be any age again for one week, what age would you be?
Six

You can cast any actor now alive to you in a film about your life. Whom would you cast in the role?
하정우?.

If you could have one superpower, which would you choose?
Super Strength.  Hulk strength

Have you ever been sexually attracted to a family member or a person of an inappropriate age? How did you deal with it?
I don't count as a family member to myself do I?.. So no.

You can choose your method of dying and the place in which you will die. Where would you like to die and how?
I want to die alone in a peaceful place and state.

You can choose your last meal. What will the menu consist of?
Meat and fried stuff.

If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?
Parks and Rec.

If you joined the circus, what act would you most want to perform?
Lion tamer.

You see three teenagers making fun of a mentally handicapped man in the street. What would you do? 
I would probably just glare at them and growl at them to leave him alone.  If they want to start something, so be it.

A dear friend is in agony and wants you to help him/her to die. Would you?
I don't know... I'm afraid I would actually help him/her die....

Your best friend dies, what would you do?
Be sad for a little bit then add on to the list of reasons why I need to make it to paradise. 

What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
Drinking.

Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around
outside your window. Who do you call?
I call no one.

If you could do anything OR wish for anything that would come true, what would you wish?
Live in paradise.

If you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?
Pray to God and ask for forgiveness for any sins that I have overlooked and 봉사.

Have you ever cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend?
No. 

What's the worst thing about being your gender?
Almost everything about the balls suck.  They get stuck to your leg, you could sit on it and hurt it badly, you could hurt it while running, you could hurt it by jumping... too vulnerable

What is the strangest dream you've ever had?
I have soooooooooooooooooooooo many strange dreams.  A lot of them consist of me dying and a lot of them are scary.   But the scariest one was my family turned haunted.  My mom and sis were both ghastly and speaking a weird language that consisted of screaming and breathing hard.  And the worst part was, I would wake up in another dream that consisted of more haunted family stuff...  I was so afraid to sleep for a while after that dream.

Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heart break or have never loved before?
True love with the heart break.  I'd hate to live a life thinking "what if..."

Think of the last time you were REALLY angry.
I don't remember...

What is more difficult for you; looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Looking into someone's eyes when they are telling me how they feel.


I thought this would be a lot more fun when reading Mike's and my sis's..